Post by Big Boss on Nov 11, 2015 16:30:35 GMT -8
So a lot of things have come up in my life. First thing is. I lost someone very important to me and not in the whole suicide way. As in we can no longer talk way. Ever since I found that out. My grades have dropped in school and I have been fighting with everyone, my family, even my own best friends. I have then taken to just isolating myself to my bedroom and just not talking to anyone anymore. So since I don't know what to do anymore I've decided to just give up and find something to do. Which means I won't be on TS as much. Just a break really. Or it could be permanent if I find something that makes me happy again. I might not come back because atm I feel almost hated by a few members. I feel like I just kind of cause problems now and before you tell me otherwise. It's how I feel and I can't change that atm due to how depressed I've become because of the whole "lost a friend incident". I ALSO feel like unwanted as well so there is that. But with all of this happening I may just end up leaving Imperial since everything is just taking a toll on me. I have been heartbroken, I haven't slept for 3 days almost and have just been very depressed. If anything I just may cause further problems. I already hurt someone on here that I cared for very much. I don't want to do it again.
With that however. Till we meet again. See you guys whenever.
Edit: To the person who I lost. If you read this. It wasn't your fault at all. I promise.
Edit Edit: I'll be fine now. Im staying if it means somehow I can still watch over and be there. SOMEHOW. But I am no longer depressed. Just now did I snap out of it and realized I can still do certain things in different ways. I hope you are ok and that you don't let depression take over. Otherwise you might devastate me and other people around you. I'm still here and I'll always be here.
With that however. Till we meet again. See you guys whenever.
Edit: To the person who I lost. If you read this. It wasn't your fault at all. I promise.
Edit Edit: I'll be fine now. Im staying if it means somehow I can still watch over and be there. SOMEHOW. But I am no longer depressed. Just now did I snap out of it and realized I can still do certain things in different ways. I hope you are ok and that you don't let depression take over. Otherwise you might devastate me and other people around you. I'm still here and I'll always be here.